What is Annette Marie Alchemy?

If you searched for the definition of “alchemy” you would find it’s often associated with certain mysterious methods and scientific practices of the Middle Ages. Well, I am not medieval, and I struggled through calculus and chemistry, but I have a knack for the energetic workings of the invisible world. More specifically, following the current and resonance of light and the intricate web it weaves through all. I delight in allowing its radiance to dance in me and through me, the way sunlight amuses itself on water.

This gift didn’t come to me until my fifth decade, and it completely changed my trajectory as a fearless adventuress. My previous adventures have been athletic in nature with peak experiences planned on my decade birthdays—a marathon for my 20th, an Ironman for my 30th and a 100-mile endurance run for my 40th. Challenging myself physically in nature has always been a source of growth, deepening my determination and connecting me with the flow of being completely and joyfully alive.

It was a couple of years before my 50th birthday when I was attending a retreat at Esalen that I experienced a higher dimensional frequency of light for the first time. It was like white lightening, jolting my nervous system and stirring up the shadows of my psyche. I felt numb except for a deep, unfathomable grief that I knew was not from this lifetime. It was this spiritual encounter that led me to an inner journey of my body and being. A whole new adventure exploring the invisible realms of shamanic healing, subtle body awareness and my own subconscious. But most importantly, it was the beginning of a devoted deep dive into my heart. I am a fearless adventuress.

Ughhh!!! The countless layers of armor that I didn’t even know I had! This was confounding to me as a woman who knew how much she was loved and whose heart’s desire was to be love. I accepted the challenge of embracing the locked-up spaces of my heart with all the patience and compassion I could muster. I embodied my name and became “a net of healing grace.” My mom named me, Annette Marie, after Mother Mary and her mother Ann, and I believe tapping into healing Grace is part of my alchemy. Over the years, the armor dissolved and my heart transformed from tight bud to blossoming rose, its love pumping and flowing through all of me. Its light now free to gleam through every pore and particle of me. I am a heart opener.

Over the years and with lots of guidance from lightworkers and teachers, I was able to fortify my vessel to sustain the higher dimensional light frequency. When it first came, my body and being were like a parched, hardened landscape, not permitting it to penetrate me. It took time to allow myself to soften and surrender, and eventually jagged jolts became subtle showers permeating through me. Much like how trees and plants step down sunlight with photosynthesis, I am now able to receive and weave the higher dimensional frequency of light in and through me—above and below, beside and between, within and throughout. I am a light weaver.

There are a few elements that kept me sane during this new metamorphosis of me. You may be familiar with the icebreaker activity in which you choose a word to describe the essence of each individual in the group. I’ve participated in some of these with different organizations and the two words that are repeatedly shared about me are grounded and aware. These have always been fundamental facets of me and my alchemy. Being the witness of all my encounters and staying grounded in the truth of my Being. It has been a devoted practice of mine to foster this way of being, with every breath, in every moment. Another key element is trust. There is no measure in words for the amount of holy faith I carry. I have a profound knowing that I am loved and held in divine protection and perfection. That no matter how choppy and rough the sea of life can be, I am carried in the calm and constant current beneath it all. I am deeply grateful for the love and support that surrounds me, both seen and unseen. And gratitude has also been a transformative force in the alchemy of me.

Over the years, as I continued my inner trek, a new calling emerged. I have always felt a sacred bond with Mother Earth, but I could now sense her compelling current, urging me to play my part in a much bigger way. It is now time for me to be the messenger of love I came here to be—a voice for Mother Nature and a catalyst for inspiring others to care for earth and each other. Many of my ancestors were farmers and writers—stewards of the land and language. I have this in common with them and I am grateful to be here at this churning & turning time of humanity’s evolution to help usher in a new earth and world that works for all. I am an earth messenger.

Annette Marie Alchemy is about sowing and growing the seeds of this possibility. It is about cultivating a state of wonder, beauty and reverence for this gift called Life. It’s trusting the current in the river of life and knowing love is the true power that flows through all. It’s about aligning with the purity of divine order, natural law and right relationship, listening and leading from the heart. It is the art of lovingly weaving spirit into form and form into wholeness with the foundational threads of wonder, beauty and co-creation for a new earth. I am Annette Marie alchemy.